Hello,I am taking some vacation time this week along with Susan. We will be going out of town tomorrow to the coast so that should be very fun and a lot cooler. I'm sick and tired of every single day being well over a hundred degrees.
If I post pictures of female feet that I have posted in the past, please have patience. I only have about 9,000 pictures to work with and odds are there will be reposts from time to time. I got a scathing email from Lauren earlier today. Here is an excerpt from this unpleasant email.
" Susan and Andrea, please stop posting fucking pictures that we've seen before and come up with some new shit. You two are loooooosers. Get with it. Also all you girls out there better stop insinuating that I am black. If you keep it up, I will track each of you down and slice your throats. " ~ Lauren
So as you can see, Lauren is quite angry with this blog.
Well, the time has come to come to grips with things for me. While Susan has been on the blogs over the years worrying that she has some terrible disease, the truth of the matter is that I most likely do. I've known for a few years but have never discussed it. My doctor told me a few years ago that she strongly suspects that I have Multiple Sclerosis.
I tried to ignore it but deep down I know it's true. What started off years ago as tingling in my arms and legs and occasional weakness, it has progressed into more pressing issues. Recently my vision became blurry and I would see occasional black spots. I often drop things with my left hand and it doesn't have much strength. I also get very light headed often and at times my mouth feels numb, like when you get shots at the dentist.
So I guess it's time to see a neurologist and get an MRI to confirm what is now the obvious. I don't play softball much lately and have had to stop my runs at night. I tried to stay very active in hopes that the disease would not progress, but it has. I do have great periods when I go weeks and even months with no symptoms at all, which is typical of MS in many people. This gives me hope that it's relapsing MS and not progressive which is more rare and often leads to severe disability.
My doctor thinks that if it is MS that it won't be the bad kind, not that any of it is good. But at least if I have a definite diagnosis that I can begin treatment and hopefully feel better. I get depressed at times thinking about it but for the most part I stay optimistic. I am determined to live an active and happy life no matter what and I think I will.
One of my fears is that Susan would not want to stay with me if I have MS but she has assured me she will. Hell, she still thinks she has it too, but I know she doesn't. She doesn't have any of the signs like I do. Her problem is that she is so fearful that she has it that her mind gives her the symptoms. But she is fine, unlike me.
As I said, I have known about this for a while and finally decided to tell you all, though I suspect Joyce, Non and Lauren are the only ones who check in here. I just told you because I suspect things might get worse for me. One thing I DO NOT want is sympathy so please don't go there. None of it, please. I don't feel sorry for myself and nor should you. As Susan always says in her political rants, "you reap what you sow. " If I do have this, it's because I deserve it. I believe God punishes his children in the human flesh. God will not punish me beyond the grave because of my faith and acceptance of His Son, Jesus Christ. So I feel this is punishment for my earthly sins and I accept it. I have no choice.
Whether it's MS or something else, I will face it bravely. Who cares if it's bad? This life is but a blink of an eye, a mere moment in time. What's 70-80 years compared to the billions and billions of eons of eternity? With my eternal destiny absolutely determined, I have no fear. Nor should any of you that have put your faith in The Lord, Jesus Christ. But if you haven't ever done so, you should be paralyzed with fear that you could die without Christ. So accept him and be done with it!
While I may not be all that bummed about my health, I am certainly bummed about having to go THIS long without an orgasm. It's been months since I last came. I can't believe Susan has the resolve she has to keep me in denial this long. She hardly ever even lets me touch my own pussy. I'm kept in chastity almost all the time unless I'm having a period. If you do have sympathy for me for anything it should be for this. Try talking Susan into letting me cum. Pleeeeease!!!!!!
Here are some pictures. Lauren, if there is any reposts, try to remain calm. ;-)
Andrea
1. Pink (pornstar)
2. Paula Abdul (judge on American Karaoke)
3. Paris Hilton (wet dream of Susan)
4. Heather Tom (soap opera actress and foot Goddess)
5. Sandra Oh (actress who lived between 1856-1994)
